So it has begun. I just purchased my laptop for school and downloaded the programs my school suggests for my paper writing. School is really around the corner. Not that I’m trying to get ahead but I also started reading some of my books and my brain is already exploding. But that’s ok, its seminary… its expected. I’m so excited to be learning more theology & growing on the things I learned in undergrad. Huzzah!
Today was a really exciting day! My seminary had what they call a Fall “Advance.” It was basically a beginning of the year meeting for new and current students where we can all get to know one another & our professors. It was truly an amazing experience because it was a jump into the sea of seminary (which relates to about 10 million things that were said today about getting thru waves & the seas and…well… it was just… WOW.) I can barely describe or even get my head somewhat around all the experiences and things I am going to learn. I was excited to hear about all the events and communal gatherings that go on. I am truly going to grow and that is what I have really had a deep desire to do.
But don’t think this won’t come with sacrifice or hardship. I gave myself a headache by attending the session on researching books & articles online. Realized that I have about 2-3 programs I definitely want to download onto my new laptop when I get it and realize that my Saturdays will mostly be trekking up to the Library so I can have some real study time. From what I also understand I definitely will need lots and lots of prayer to protect my heart, soul and mind from spiritual warfare. I know i’ve already met some from the most unexpected place and I haven’t even started school yet.
However, i trust God to lead me and as He says, to never forsake me. I was blessed to hear that this morning and for the reminder that God loves us, and that He is preparing me for this journey that I have not only suppressed for so long but cannot wait to jump into.
Yesterday I got to register for my classes at Fuller. That was a huge relief and exciting as ever knowing that I will be studying again. I know, its a little weird saying I’m going to enjoy this but I feel as though I have a deep joy inside me that has just been released. So I registered for Beginning Greek, Systematic Theology and Foundations for Ministry. Pray for me during these studies… cause anyone who has been in school knows everyone needs a little prayer.
What really made yesterday great was that I also received my financial aid reward. Enough to cover classes, books, and possibly some other school-related expenses. This was a great discovery since I had been told I would not receive the awards until Friday/Next Monday. It was also nice to know I would be covered.
I know… I should trust God a little more when he says “Go” but I’m human… and I get very anxious of making sure things are secured before making major changes. In the end, God provided, just as he has in the past. I’m really going to try and get the best grades possible. I know this is a silly goal right now, since i have no idea what grad classes are like, but I want it to be a goal. My undergrad GPA was the highest it has ever been (honest GPA, not elevated like in high school with AP classes) and I want to hang onto that. I also want to (in the futurue God-willing) to pursue a Th.M. For some reason I feel a pull towards this and want to be able not only to lead a congregation but also to have enough knowledge to do a little teaching. This will take time, something I know God has clearly stated I have plenty of, and so I will work at my M.Div until times reveals.
In closing, when I found out yesterday about my classes and financial aid, I sang a song to God…(The Doxology if you want to know)
Exactly what the post says… nothing much going on.
This morning consisted of me trying not to think about the sunburn I acquired at my neice’s soccer game yesterday and of what to eat for breakfast as we have no food in the house.
On a positive note, I had enough money to service my car for 60k miles. That was a blessing because I need to keep my little Matrix (aka Beaker) running.
Today is also rally sunday at church– which equates to food, fun, and a raffle that I will be handing out tickets for 🙂 I figured it was a great way for people to learn who I am and then I get to meet a lot of people as well.
I’m praying God will calm my nerves down considering I am still in this limbo state for school. Classes start on September 27th, I have no idea what my financial aid status is or my admissions status really because my portico states I’m still a “Limited Enrolled Student” when I know I’m program seeking. At least that’s what I think. I sent out follow up emails and I register for classes on Tuesday so I am hoping/praying everything will be worked out by then. But that’s Tuesday, today is Sunday, and frankly… I’m still worried 😛
Well, here i am. I’m writing out another blog of sorts in house to put down my thoughts as they come to me. It’s difficult, because this actually requires me to come to a sigh and think up things to say. But I’m sure ideas will come around.
So in less than two weeks I am praying I will be starting my first grad-school seminary classes in Greek, Systematic Theology and Ministry Foundations. I’m so excited… I almost don’t know what for. I know God is calling me to this aspect of life and study… and I know God is calling me to a life of ministry… but what that looks like I have no idea. Walking by faith again, I guess.
Anyways… I pray that God will help support me in any way He sees fit. God knows I need help 🙂