Light in the Darkness

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Written before Christmas:

This year has been hard on me. We had so much happen all at once in the last few months that I felt like emotionally it’s just starting to catch up. We haven’t been to church in months despite my deep desires to attend. And of course, in 2 days it’s Christmas. I felt like the twice holiday Christian. It was a little disheartening for someone with a Masters in Theology from a seminary. Especially at Advent and Christmas.

So today, Sunday, I made it to church. Gratefully really. And today the advent candles is that of love. Now- there are several places my christian faith goes when discussing love “coming down” at Christmas. But the main message today was the light coming into the world. And I needed that image today.

Despite all the chaos, the dark, the bad: a child cane into the world to bring light and hope to broken people. Now I don’t get focused on what time of year (while making it winter in the Northern hemisphere does provide an excellent example for contrast) or historical specifics… but the idea of a child with the power of God in Him is something to celebrate.

So from the light, I got back to my favorite Christmas verse: Isaiah 9. Mostly because it is from the little light it all grows into greatness. And is this little child symbolized as a light that holds the glory and strength our world needs. Hope. Peace. Joy. Love. Light!

So I pray as the year closes, This message lasts longer than the dark winter season. For our world needs it much longer than one night of the year.

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Christmas Thoughts 2018

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It’s Dec. 17th. 8 days until Christmas. Yesterday in our house we barely set up the tree. We hung the stockings just in time. And yet-Yesterday I watched my son hang his first ornament on that same tree he helped pick out and tonight he pointed to the dogs on those stockings. Yesterday we went to Disneyalnd– 8 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS! And yet, Austin got to silly dance to some big band and we all got photos in front of the snowy castle, the light up christmas twice and even Mickey Mouse!

Christmas came quick (and early but late) this year. So instead of taking millions of photos and getting sucked in, I decided that “making memories” is more important.

So as the season brings the year to a close, think about the things that matter. I know I don’t want to miss my son dancing and jumping to music, to giggling or getting excited about Mickey coming, or thinking starry-eyed thoughts while we smile for that tradtional photo in front of a glowing sparkly castle.

Here’s to making memories matter

Blog Boost

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It’s been a while since I’ve been able to get back to my blog. Kids happen and memories to me are more important that documenting it all.

But I realized that my blog was a little outdated and needed some help. And the only way it was going to get help was for me to get back into posting and writing.

So just be prepared for new posts, new items and (dare I say it) — its own Facebook “page.” Please help it gain popularity by liking the page, checking out the blog and even suggestion things on the page you may want to hear discussions on. I’m pretty much open to anything. Musings of an afterthought, afterall 😉 (of course subject to personal choice.)

 

Musings Must Continue!!!

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So when you have a child–there’s a lot they don’t tell you. Sleepless night-sure, everyone gets those and food in your hair instead of your mouth isn’t that atypical. But they forget to mention the part of your life that gets consumed with children’s things. There’s playing and fights about Mickey Mouse. While I love watching my child get excited with his first chocolate milk or when he pretends to sleep in his play tent — it leave little room for blogging.

BUT MUSINGS MUST CONTINUE

So here I am. Trying to get back into blogging world. Maybe upgrade the site. Or style. Or get some structure.

Or…enjoy this little cutie some more 💕

Make Room for the Giant

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2018 has come and half gone already. I was shocked to realize that my reading goal of 20 books is slowly losing space. But considering I started off the adventurous, maybe the next books will be easier.

That being said, you’re problem where the title of this blog came from. No, it’s not the title of the book. It’s in reference to it’s pure size.

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This book is in no way short. Almost 500 pages of hidden (not secretive) history of Autism, it’s impacts on early children diagnosed, parents of those children and eventually the growth of something called neurodiversity. This is a fairly new term that explains the idea that autism doesn’t need a cure to fix a problem, but that autistic people have a different set of neurons providing a creative and sensitive outlook on life.

Despite its length, i enjoyed this book. I discovered how the beginnings of this condition confused many people, leading to bad insights like “bad parenting causes autism and therefore you should send your kid away.” It’s just horrible some of the things they thought and put families through. It really opened my eyes to the struggles related to autism.

My favorite chapter is the one about finding autistic mind can truly open up a world of creativity. Especially the beginnings of science fiction. People formed what would be considered the first fan clubs over the early fantasies and thoughts about space, astronauts and aliens. Let me tell you as another fan-girl, it was awesome!

So if you need a long book but want to be entertained and educated, pick up a copy!

The Missing Reading Records (sept 2017-april 2018)

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Wow. In working through this bog with a small child pushing buttons of the keyboard I realized I have not written in my book reading section in several months.  And I have actually read several books. So here’s a brief summary of the things I have read since my last post:

KETOGENIC COOKBOOKS: For my pcos diet I have picked up several of Maria Emmerich’s cook books on this Diet. They are organized in a lovely simplistic manner and include meal plans I can actually follow. My favorites are the quick and easy Keto book as well as the easy dairy free one. Not an easy diet, but well worth trying if you have hormone issues.

Allie and Bae by Catherine Ryan Hyde: an easy read a out an older lady and a younger teenager caught in unfortunate circumstances and how they survive by thriving with each other. We read it for my church book group, i recommend it if you need a filler, it’s not jaw dropping but I really needed support and encouragement and this book has definitely elements for that at any age.

A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle: short but so jammed packed! Yes we read it before the movie came out. I had never read it…which was unfortunate cause it is my perfect book. Science, fantasy, love, faith…agh! I can’t rave about this book enough. I won’t be seeing the movie right away though. One because I have a kid but more for reason two that I don’t want to ruin any quality it has by my read and I don’t want to ruin the book by analyzing the movie. I have respect for both genres and therefore will take some time.

Highly sensitive person and Highly sensitive child by Elaine Aron: I was given the Child book before as a recommendation as I noticed some things going on with Austin and wanted some answers. But starting that book cause me to look st myself as realize I have sensitivities I have adapted for adult living. Both these books were great for that!

Well that’s the completed bunch so far. I’m almost thru another couple books but life jumped in the way and movie season is upon us. Hopefully updates will come more often. Hopefully the blog posts will too

The Mean, Green, 2018!

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Welcome everyone to the New Year!

I know its a little behind. And there are always excuses for this. But I am honestly going to work on a more regular schedule for this blogging. We shall see where that goes.

To Recap: 2017 was both awesome and crazy of a year. Our kiddo turn 1 in August and he had many first events including giggling, crawling, walking and running. Yep-we’ve got a toddler folks! He’s still adorable as ever. Now he just makes your heart jump out of your chest as he runs down the hallway or tries to climb the sofa or recliner. Slow down kid!

2017 was also the beginning of me finally getting a chance to address my health. As previous posts have indicated… I have PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It is a hormonal disorder where my ovary look like they have theese “cysts” (and some women can have actually cysts) causing me to not release an egg each month (aka not ovluating.) This is why conceiving was so hard and emotional for me.  It is also what causes my excessive hair growth, my overweight-ness despite working out a lot in previous years, trying the “nth” number diet only to lose little weight. BUT this year i actually lost 56lbs following my OBGYN’s suggestions to give up gluten, sugar and now going ketogenic. I’m meeting with her right before Lent to suggest some of the things I am going to talk about now.

So — for 2018 here are my goals (not resolutions, but going to accomplish things)

  1. get out of Debt: Shawn and I have a plan for this and prefer to keep that between us as much as possible. I admit I have spending problems but lets face it… one of the FEW girly things I enjoy is shopping and the thrill of something new and fun
  2. Get On with PCOS — while I have been doing a lot, I want to keep this momentum going. mostly because if Shawn and I want to consider any future children (which is a discussion best kept between us as well), I will need to be healthy and have a better grasp on my PCOS issues. I know things now, have a lost enough to make a differnce. My specific goal is to lose the additional 60 pounds to reach my “ideal weight” and go more gluten free/dairy free/unprocessed as much as possible. I don’t want to be on anyone’s “high risk” any longer. WHY? – for the sake of my son. I want to be here when he’s 30 or 35 or whenever. I want the most out of life with him and Shawn. Managing my PCOS also includes emotional health, physical health and pyschological health. While pregnant, I played the “pregnancy” card for a long time. Because I couldn’t get a grasp on myself. It made me bitter…and that sucked. I want more than that.
  3. Get going on work goals — I prefer not to discuss too many of these details either. But I have some very specific things I want to reach at work. Since I worked hard to bring myself up from being out on leave last year. I want 2018 to only look 10x better than 2017.

 

What are your goals? Do you get specific, general, or don’t even plan? Share with others about goals you have met and goals you are struggling with. Reach for it!