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Last full day 1st family vacay

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The last full day on our cruise was another full day of sea. We started practicing our crawl-a-thon that in the end being apart from mommie was more powering than crawling

Thursday we also went swimming. Well-splashing. But Austin had an awesome time playing in the water.

We also met the captain and went shopping-including Austin who picked out his first Disney shirt. And you think I’m lying–I tell you he went back many times to the same shirt, shaking it and giggling.

Disney is always fun and it was great to get back on a cruise near to home!

Till next time!

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Day One Keto

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So here we are. Day one of my ketogenic diet. I actually am excited to start this. And that’s why I’m glad I waited until today versus last Wednesday. I was able to cook and bake some items so I am prepared to keep this diet going. It also kicked in my curiosity because several of the recipes have unique flavors and twists on things I know and love. I thought I would give a low-down on what’s going to happen:

My goal: to keep this diet up for 90 days. Or at least until my blood work for my doctor (3 months from now.) my doctor wants to see me keep this diet for 3 months and see how it affects my levels. I know personally I just want to be able to keep it up and get my body working for me Instead of against me.

Here is what my daily schedule is going to look like:

1) Limit WHEN I eat.

So on the Keto diet, it is suggested that one work on a schedule of intermittent fasting. This means you only eat for a restricted amount of hours, at least 3 hours before bed and only consume water or tea otherwise. It has many benefits like boosting your metabolism and keeping away the issue of eating on the couch right before bed. Both of these I have problems with…along with chips (which I’ll get to later.). So I have figured during the week and most Saturdays I can do this then on Sundays I can enjoy a nice breakfast or relax. Also it’s the one day Shawn and I spend as a family so the likelihood of me doing it is low. Better to make attainable small goals, right?

I’ll mostly be eating at noon, 2p, 5p and 8p as that is the time my schedule fits. Let’s see how it sticks.

2) limit WHAT I eat.

Since the 1st–I have been making a conscience effort to be aware of what I eat. On a ketogenic diet you can only have up to 20 net carbs (carbs minus fiber) a day. To give you an idea of how hard this can be, 20 could be one chip or price of candy or even 2 tortillas, small size. So I will not be eating bread (don’t anyways cause I’m gluten free), fries, potatoes in general, corn anything or any fruit. Almost like a dog “grain free” diet. Best news? Whey chocolate protein shakes are on the menu! With my coconut unsweetened milk and seasoning for “Mexican got chocolate.” See what I mean by creative menu items?!

Speaking of which–that is what I had for breakfast. It was tasty and filling all at the same time. For lunch I had pizza egg bits, only equating to maybe 9 carbs total (considering the light spoonful of tomato sauce) adding up to only 11net carbs so far. I have a broccoli cheese snack for later and tonight it’s either chicken and peppers on lettuce or walnut crusted pork chops.

I really don’t see any major down side to this diet…other than having to prepare and cook almost all I eat. It’s a huge change for Shawn and I but at least he’s supporting me on this (HUGE KEY FACTOR) and willing to eat what I eat at home. In fact I made key lime popsicles with key lime cues and he had a few bits.

Well Keto, here goes nothing!(ignore the peppers and such…it’s only high carb veggies :-P)

November moving to Keto

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So here it is…November 1st.

Today was the day I had planned to move to my ketogenic diet which incorporates high fat, moderate protein and low carb. This meant no chips, fries, rice or tortillas.

However–I couldn’t have picked a worse day to start

Not only is it in the middle of the week but it is also a day I have a morning meeting with my MOPS group, haven’t prepared anything cause last night was Halloween and I had to take a second shower since we had a fire pit going. Work has also offered me some prizes that I can have now not later (like a Jamba Juice drink) and Shawn and I also talked a little bit about what this diet means and how much he is participating (he will eat what I eat at home, not drink soda, etc. but not so gluten free and be responsible for his own not safe snacks.)

So instead…I will be starting this new lifestyle Monday, November 6th.

Holiday laughs

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So Facebook is wonderful seeing old photos.

Today I came across this one with the csptsin: when traveling with a pumpkin always remember safety first.

Yep-made me laugh. Happy pumpkin in a seatbelt Day!!

Another fun day!

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So sometimes if you work full time —you should take a day to run off and have fun! Luckily for me—this includes Disneyland.

So there were many laughs with the twists,’turns and tangled on the rides

Sending Toxic to the Trash

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I want to preface this blog up front. There are sensitive and personal topics in this message. They affect me deeply and emotionally and the fact that I am writing them down somewhere is actually a HUGE step in the emotional and mental “recovery” I need from practically having a breakdown a few weeks ago. I am good… don’t worry. But I don’t want it to get that bad again. So I’m heading off stuff at the pass and working on something that was encouraged by my 28 challenge in my MOPS group.

So here is goes:

Today, the dare was to three things the toxic voices in your head are saying. Then we’re suppose to write back to those voice, tell them why they are no longer true and write more about who you are really—having the last word. I know I needed to do this because it is these toxic voices that came up when I get depressed or disheartened and they help me spiral down emotionally. I don’t want that anymore. It sucks and when I talk about a spiral–I mean a literal mental spiral of thoughts that I can almost see forming in my head and I mentally have to stand my grand and shove back. No Longer I say–no longer.

1) I am not enough.

This is probably the root of all my emotional/mental strain. That I feel I am not enough. That I’m not enough of a mother, a wife, pet owner, a friend, a person. I’m not smart enough, I’m not healthy enough, I’m not organized enough. you name it. When something goes crazy wrong, I feel that I have left someone down by not doing enough to stop what happened.

Well “not enough”—guess what!? I am MORE than enough. I am a good mother-I care for my child, feed him, cuddle him and play with him. I put him first before anything because I know that I matter more than the world to this little human.  I am MORE than enough of a wife. I cook, I clean, I try to keep it together and support my husband when he is having a bad day or struggling with a work issue. I am MORE than a good pet parent–my dogs and rabbit get love, get food and sometimes I even let them have those whip cream spoons or run around wild for a movement. And I take them to the vet when they need help to make sure they are themselves, as healthy as they can be.

I am MORE than enough of a friend. I will always be there for them and no matter what–there’s always a spare place to sleep at our house (just call ;-)) and I always try to offer food if anyone is hungry.

and finally–I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH OF A PERSON. In my faith, I believe God sees me as having value. As being important and cared for as who I am. I wouldn’t be created nothing less. Now– I don’t use this to place me in a position authority or discrimination. But as someone who needs reassurance and to upstart my confidence.

2) You’re At Fault/ You need to Fix this.

Everyone close to me know that I have a tendency to take things personally. To the point of getting upset over the little things because I take on too much. This happened two weeks ago. When something goes wrong—it is in my nature to want to fix it to make it right. Don’t like a certain food?- I’ll make a special dish. Don’t like green?- I’ll purposely wear your favorite color. Don’t like me?- I’ll change so you do. I want people to feel loved and happy despite my own self-identity at times.

Well- that is definitely NOT my fault. While encouraging others to build themselves is good, sacrificing self identity is not acceptable. I realistically know that I cannot please everyone. And that not everyone is going to like me at all times. Life still moves and I know who to turn to if I need to feel more positively about myself. I will not cut out negative nellies because this world can and does suck sometimes. But I don’t need to try and digest the world. Especially at that moment. I just need to learn to digest constructive criticism without major consequence.

3) I am not alone:

This isn’t as much of a voice as much as it is my actions. I wonder if it comes sometimes from the fact I was a child of a double uterus of my mother (look it up-basically it’s two pouches for babies instead of one.) or just because at a young age I was forced to grow up but I operate very independently. Both in activity and taking on caring and action. While this can be a positive—it can come untangled quickly.

I know spiritually I am not alone. God is with me. always. And here I know Shawn is with me and Austin Needs me! and that I have friends and Co-workers and even completely strangers at times who stand beside me. So this alone crap is nonsense! I’m inserting this picture from the cruise because here is our family in a huge crowded environment and the servers ended being the best!—even entertaining Austin so I could eat! Supporting each other is key and therefor I am not alone

I enclosed the other photos as well because I feel they are moments recently where I was feeling my best. That silent moment where you realize life is good, that you are loved and that it’s great to giggle once and a while. YAY ME!

A little Keto Krazy?

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I know I have used this blog a lot to vent about my ups and downs in the dieting world. And thankful for it—it has given me an outlet to express how things are going with it all.

So recently on doctors orders I went gluten free. I love it honestly…for the first time in several months I had breaded shrimp and I swear I felt like a ton of bricks. So glad I’m not king back.

I also was told to go sugar free and I am trying very hard to do this but sometimes the craving takes over.

So as a result of my stalling Health numbers and weight…my doctor gave me the duty of going on a ketogenic diet. What does that mean? Well-it means 70-80% day, 15-20% protein and 5-10% carbs in my daily intake of food. There are more detailed explanations elsewhere, but in reading a lot about it I am confident this is my new happy health lifestyle. Not only is it about getting sugar out but helping my body actually burn fat not carbs/sugar turned into fat. I’ve already lost 40lbs…let’s lose some more.

So my Keto Diet is coming into full swing November 1st. At that point I want to be 100% eating this diet and I can’t wait. I’m doing a lot of reading, already purchased some ingredients to help me plan meals and saying goodbye to all that crud I eat that I’m sure is killing my body.

Why November 1st? Why not I say!

This is not a diet you can just start. There are guidelines, understanding of calorie intake and a lot of knowledge to st least glimpse before starting. Here are just a few:

1) you monitor your ketones daily.

When I was gestational diabetic, I had to measure my ketones because I was full blown insulting resistent. And when I mean full blown, I mean the last month of pregnancy I was taking 2-3x the average shot just to try and get my insulin levels to lower in the morning. From these little strips and measuring. Sugar I could tell a) I should never eat French fries and b) why a glass of milk before bed is not a great idea (milk has sugar people.)

2) have things prepared:

Don’t worry—I’m excited since Shawn and I need to work better at this anyways. I have found a few good books (like the one below) that have helpful ideas and luckily I live walking distance to a Sprouts which labels almost everything in the store for something like this.

I am also lucky in that I will take on any cooking challenge to learn how to make new things. I bought a ton of supplement ingredients the other night I had no idea what I was buying… it knew I wanted to try some crazy recipe to enjoy variety.

3) knowledge:

Knowing which foods to eat on any strict diet can be intimidating. I’m just trying to practice right now and I realize I eat tons of carbs still. Crackers (yes gluten free), rice, French fries. Many times I seriously just want the meat and cheese on a plate. I can’t eat practically anywhere as they use flour, grains, or carb laden options. My salmon tacos were amazing today but the chips and beans were bad sides packing on carbs.

Food looks complete different to me now. And probably will forever more. Good news: bacon and butter are fully approved!

So please work with me and don’t be offended when I say I can’t eat something. When I ignore fake and ice cream and even the corn tortillas. (I may need a taco occasionally.) here we go!!!!